That's me in a nut shell...now?? What I don't understand is why these two things are running hand and hand..it not a problem like you just put it...I don't really get bent outta shape... other people do..?? IDK?? But I'm going through shit in life to where I can't just go get meth..but I also have this shit you call schizophrenia?? I do hear shit from time to time.. voices see shit even when I'm not doing drugs... that just makes it funeral to me...but I know it also scares others because I just get quiet?? I don't think like others..I really don't care about shit to a point...like I mean it but I don't..it not that serious..I can go for months on that shit..and not tell a soul I got meth..I do contribute to people...I buy meth to do not sell .but it's a problem now because of my life is in control of other people..the law owns me kinda..but doesn't because I don't give a shit bout that...but I'm getting older ... women my age look pretty rugged do to these symptoms...I feel like a young man still..look it too..but I also don't want to drive myself crazy over this shit..I'm in a bind like no other..it is not the drugs that hold me it me my pride...my lost of my friend..my sex life..the shit I loved in live.. that's what fucking me up.. really fucking me up...I don't want just anything that spreads her legs...I want the finest bitch alive... that is my real problem... deep inside..but nobody knows that?? Sorry it's like ..get over it...but it's not that easy..I'm used to fucking.... straight up... this what I think of myself... imma dope smoking pussy eating muthafu ker... that is Michael Chippewa... that's the problem...I learned how to ride that bike.... something I can't forget about....my life was her.... that was my pussy... funny but it gone now...I gave up....it's tomorrow I'm worried about...I only like native bitches...but there fucked up...nyou about is in here ..he's real...this is a issue that's serious...women love my dumb ass...but I'm a real addict to the bone...i feel lost with out my yogo...wrll other than that..i know get over it...you try when all you ever knew was nice ass and pussy...then u can tell me that...o good unless you know em ..I kinda worried about my future life of love and happiness??.. for one I'm a nasty mutha...69..and the guy I told